its nothing special...

stinkerellina @ 2005-08-30T17:36:00

2005-08-30T16:43:37Z

not going to be lazy anymore and am finally going to update my journal. although so much has happened since i last did it that i cant really be bothered to say it all.

tonight have a semi date with a fitty from work with whom i shared a passionate, albeit drunken, embrace after the work night out to walkabout the other week (come on, its was walkabout, i couldnt NOT get drunk or would have ended up hanging myself from one of the decorative surf boards).
we are going to go and see the tempest in approximately 1 hour and 21 minutes.

simon is still simon but i appear to have suddenly become his (and everyoen else's) therapist.

and i successfully polished off my free bottle of ameretto (neat) with my sister the other night without any problems at all, although there certainly were problems at work the next morning.

and i am now the proud owner of a 99p oxfam copy of labyinth, a tacky gold ornate framed mirror and a mouse but i dont really own that. it just seems to have taken up residence in the fireplace in my bedroom.

and now i am going to go cos if you stare at a screen for too long you can get square eyes apparently

stinkerellina @ 2005-08-23T14:42:00

2005-08-23T13:56:39Z

oh god i really cant be bothered to update this.

fuck it, im not going to. but here are some pictures

http://www.truprint.co.uk/slideshow/AlbumID=26420653/PictureID=721375305/t_=30466227

http://www.truprint.co.uk/slideshow/AlbumID=26420653/PictureID=721375305/t_=30466227

there you go

stinkerellina @ 2005-08-11T12:53:00

2005-08-11T12:01:15Z

"take me to the snowy mountains way down south, lead me to your daddy's farm"

Can you guess what it is yet?

its that sacred day off again! that time of bliss when i dont have to describe the histroy of another antique vase for a whole 24 hours. but instead i have to spend the whole day doing the things that i dont have time to do while at work (bank, emails, supermarket etc).

has been an ok week though apart from overly complicated man situation (not even going to try and describe it), brother mvoing to new zealand and making an absolute tit of myself at work party and flirting with everyone including the campest of my collegues and one of the supervisors.

dont matter though.

and i have successfully made a start on my film! horray! have written bit of it and film maker supreme barney says he will help. yippee!

am fed up with looking at computer now so am going to go and make the most of my time off. also going to TRY and put some photos onto this thing but not sure how to do it.

stinkerellina @ 2005-08-05T16:00:00

2005-08-05T15:11:59Z

yo!

havent updated this thing for a hell of a long time so thought it was about time.#

whats been happening?

-working very hard (this is first day off in two weeks)
-met the queen (oh yeah baby)
-ollie brunnetti acting very clingy and annoying after i accidentally kissed him
-clemmie has now moved to brazil (boooo)

and not only that but next week my bro is moving to new zealand and the sis is going to move to dubai in a month! everyone is bloody well leaving me! bit sad about that but guess it means i have lots of exciting holiday destinations and free accomodation.

tonight i am going on a date with the kosovan dude. introduced him to clem and katie and jo and they all agreed that he is very good looking and that i should give him a chance. so i am doing just that. and tonight at approximately 8 pm i shall be eating thai food with him , drinking wine and then heading off to the portobello film festival (i told him i would have prefered charlie and chocolate factory but i suppose i will have to be a bit culutred just for one night and watch some arty farty choppy camara work style films).

and simon is still texting but i am doing my best to ignore him. this mornings episode was "heya, im having a mellow evening (film/food/sofa) so come join me if you find yr at a loose end".

WHAT? id have to be at a very loose end. but you have to give him credit, he is very good at disgusing what he really wants to ask for (use your imagination)

got zilch money at the moment so what did i decide to do? be sensible and but a giant bag of economy rice and some tins to keep me going til pay day? not on your nelly. instead i went out and bought a new dress. it is great though. and only a tenner from Beyond Retro cos it had a hole in it. its blue and white polka dot and it makes me look like some kind of cheeky 1930s teenager. think i might wear it tonight, them portobello film festival types will appreaciate it.

anyway, enough is enough and im off home to prepare for the date (should i bother shaving legs or not? maybe thats tempting fate a bit)

stinkerellina @ 2005-07-19T08:30:00

2005-07-19T07:36:26Z

guten morgen

i can explain this early update,its cos im on my way to work and im early so i thought id kill some time checking the emails.
actually i just noticed that im not as early as i thought so id better hurry up.

heres a whistlestop tour of the past few days;

stayed over at simons on friday night (i know, i know, am a twat)
got a date with some dude on friday
my friend from last year is back at work so v happy
watched about a boy for the 3000th time

there we go.

now best be off before im late

stinkerellina @ 2005-07-14T14:20:00

2005-07-14T13:31:11Z

hey ho.

today is my last day of unemployment because i officially start work tomorow! horray! finally a purpose in life...

moved house last week and am exceedingly happy to be living in new one. had a big housewarming do (ollie brunetti brought me a bottle of asti...how very classy), passed out and woke up an hour later with simon calling my phone. finally set him straight on a few things dispite his insistence that "you are such a nice girl, im fed up with hanging out with all the shoreditch crowd" and after hanging up the phone he texted me saying "do you fancy some company in your bed" to which i told him that nothing was ever ever going to happen and i havent heard from him since.
but in a strange way i cant help thinking that sometimes he actually is a nice guy and that he is geniune, but just a little confused about things. maybe i should give him another chance.
or maybe that is just utterly ridiculous.

oh bugger. i dont bloody know.

oh yeah and eliisa (the other flatmate) read my tarot cards the other day, was all very spooky and very accurate and said that i must be careful to not brush things under the carpet and should be aware of a dominneering and possibly negative female presence around my current situation. i think i have a good idea what she may be refering to.

anyway im off because "ding-dong theres the doorbell.."

stinkerellina @ 2005-07-08T17:06:00

2005-07-08T16:09:27Z

and after that time for something a little more light hearted (just to keep you all informed and up to date)

moving house tomorow! then tomorow night is house warming party (horray! cue stumbling drunkenly through my paper wall to the sound of kate bush wailing her heart out)
and yesetrday ollie brunetti texted me to see if i was safe and ended up meeting him for a drink....love him.

so there IS some good in the world!

them terrosrists not going to hold us hardy londoners down.

fuck it.

the day the "if" became a "when"

2005-07-08T15:57:39Z

"i cant believe the news today, i cant close my eyes and make them go away"

well this is bad bad stuff isnt it.

could not believe it when i woke up yesterday morning to the sounds of jo screaming that there was a terrorist attack on london.

its sooo strange. places like liverpool street and tavistock square that i walk through all the time and dont even think about it and then suddenly all my familiar places are all over the news and are victim to all this horrible and barbaric cruelty.

was so surreal to see everyone walking home from work in droves because they couldnt get public transport, and even more surreal to be walking around in this city that only a few hours earlier was being brutally attacked and bombed but that later felt really calm and serene. very much like being in a disaster movie really.

really very strange. it felt like everyone was sort of pulling together and there was a funny sense of community on the streets.

but more than anything the whole thing made me really realise what sort of a revolting world we live in. of course we see pictures of wars and fighting and other terrorist attacks on the news but when it is happening ten minutes away from you it is totally different and you realise that, even though the stuff we see on the news is (however terrible)somewhat distant from us (ie we recognise its awfullness but never entirely understand it, it always seems to be in some other dimension)it is a real thing and what happened yesetrday and even worse than that, happens everyday in some places.

also made me think alot about religion and made me see how religion is helpful. i mean, i have always been quite and unreligious person (not anti, just not religious) but had i had some kind of god or religion i think yesetrday would have ben a lot easier to get through;i would have not felt so helpless cos i could have prayed for all the suffereing people. maybe i DO need some kind of religious focus in my life to help me get though things like this.

but as i sit and type this in abid's room (which is incidentally just off tavistock square) i must remember that, while yesetrday was truly and awful day and i really really feel for all those involved and for all their families and friends, me and all the people i love are safe and well and i have to be thankful for that and appreciate how good it is to be in good health and to be surrounded by people who love you.

and now a quick message to them bastard terrorists:

fucking do one ya bastards.

stinkerellina @ 2005-07-04T10:40:00

2005-07-04T09:51:39Z

bloody bloody bloody bloody hell!

i got a 2.1 for this year! horray! could not bloody believe it cos i thought i was doing really really badly! yippee!
now all i have to do is keep up this good work over into next year. wayhay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

very very very chuffed with self.

other news...feel like, as the weekend was full of unexpected surprises, i ought to give a quick synopsis.

Friday: absolutely wankered, flirted outrageously with ollie brunetti, enourmous quantity of bacardi courtesy of tor's manager who, for some strange reason, was trying to get me drunk (dirty mare, getting married in three weeks). texted simon to say happy birthday.

Saturday: 5am, simon sees my birthday greeting as a chance to text me and invite me to his house there and then ("jump in a cab, ill pay for it"). i refuse. 1pm, decide, after receiving about 4000 texts saying "please, need to see you, still really like you", to go round to simons to watch live 8. fall asleep on sofa, he hugs me for long time and then realises he isnt getting anywhere so starts touching my bum and saying that he got me all wrong and that really i am not an ice maidan (never would have thought of myself as THAT), at this point i realise what a fool i have been. go home, think it over and make a pledge never to talk to him again (especially since he has been trying to pull one of best friends).

Sunday: recover from the momentary simon relapse and see funny side. receive couple of texts from brunetti (yum yum), free drinks in hell followed by Big Brother and Four Weddings.

Monday: horray! 2.1! strong desire to get married immediately (that bloody film), no desire to see simon whats so ever (have succesfully ignored 3 of his texts), and medium desire to text ollie back.

This calls for celebration.

The milky bars are on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stinkerellina @ 2005-07-01T12:46:00

2005-07-01T11:57:00Z

today is a horrible day.

it started off horrible and now i am sure it is going to stay horrible.

Yesterday was a good day, i wandered around in that lovely and oblvious to everything hungover and still ever so fucked state listening to my new cd that i made at abids house, flatmate moved out which means i can watch the tv in his room, anytime i want. etc etc

but today....oh lordy its bad.

started at 8.30 this morning when jo (who is having tom's room until lease runs out) came in, woke me up to tell me she had pain in her left arm and might be having a heart attack. she wasnt but it worried me anyway.

then at 9.30 the landlord bursts in and tells me that the flat is filthy and will need a lot of work after we move out (no it isnt. and anyway, my contract says that professional cleaners come as standard at the end of the lease. and i better bloody well get my deposit back), so we rused about cleaning all morning (most of it was bloody toms rubbish) cos they were showing people about later.

then the post came and i discovered that i had been sent a really nasty letter from the people at the volunteer thing about my absence from the last day. it was quite nasty and so i sent him an email saying that i took offence at what he was saying and that, for all he knew, i could have bene suffereing from a serious problem which prevented me from attending.

bastards. i thought volunteers were meant to be kind and understanding.

so now i need to do something with my day that is going to really cheer me up.
excpet that i have gone out of the house in flip flops with no tights on and it looks like it is getting cold and rainy.

can the day get any worse??? i jolly well hope not.

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-29T11:25:00

2005-06-29T10:33:55Z

i am soooo brave.

i am the bravest girl ever.

i just went to the hospital all on my own for my appointement abt the mysterious stomach ulcer and i only felt like crying once (old, withered, grey looking man being wheeled off somewhere).
didnt tell anyone about the appointment cos they all think i am being a hypercondriac and they laugh when i tell them about any possible procedures i may have to undergo (i thought friends were meant to be understanding and supportive??? ne'mind)so off i went at 8 o'clock this morning (hence why i am already in the library) and saw the gastroenterology consultant who booked me in for a breath test (since when was i drink driving) and an ultra sound (huh? pregnancy? not last time i looked there wasnt)to see if i have a) stomach ulcer b)gall stones.

all very exciting but scary cos there were lots of ill people wandering about moaning and groaning (as people in pain tend to do) and afterwards i felt so pleased with myself for gonig on my own and not being too worried that i went out and bought the biggest chocolate flapjack that money (well, all of 70p) could buy.

off to cafe 1001 in a bit for lunch, think i will walk all the way there.

-salt beef and latkas for dinner last night
-ginormous flapjack
-two and a half twixes yesterday (why abid didnt want to finish his i will never know, insanity if you ask me)

think a nice bit of healthy 1001 food will balance that lot out

and the north wind wales

2005-06-27T11:00:16Z

this entry (if you hadnt worked out the pun in the subject line...no, i can spell) is all about my weekend in wales.

it all started at 6 am on saturday morning as i stood waiting for the bus to take me to victoria coach station. for some untold reason the bus seemed to be reasonably busy, just couldnt understand it; 6 oclock on a saturday morning and all these people were getting on the number 8 and going places. ok, so some of them WHERE people coming home after a night out but the majority looked reasonably sobre. and that is exactly what i love about london. that no matter what time of day it is, there are always people up and about and doing respectable things.
it was like all the sobre people on the bus had some kind of strange affinity, like we were all part of this "other" london that most people dont get to see.
and that is my second favourite thing about it; it has so many different sides to it, there are so many "londons" and we only see about 3 of them when there are probably about 3000.

anyway, after musing about the philosphy of city life i arrived at the coach station and hoped on the megabus to spend a gruelling 3 hours scrunched up in my tiny little seat while the woman in front of me moved her seat back as far as possible so to ensure i really was likely to catch dvt.

3 hours later i arrived unharmed and was met by my sis and we spent the rest of the day pottering about looking at shops and eating food (massive platter from henry's followed by waffle and ice cream and then later some chocolate). then went back to matt's where ate a huge feast and got pissed and then played trivial pursuit which, to everyone's surprise, diana won.

next day drove to worm's head (cliff top thing, very dramatic, crashing waves, wind, v kate bush) where the air was so clean and me so unused to being in a pollution free environment, i nearly threw up (i kid thee not) and then that evening got back on the megabus for another 3 hours filled with screaming carsick babies and people eating really smelly crisps and returned to dalston revitalised and uplifted from all the clean air and good food (minus wine and 6 hours worth of megabus hell).

so now am back in the big smoke, living my "london" and pondering on all the other millions of "londons" that it hides and writting a horrendously annoying and wank update. but you know, some things just need to be said.

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-24T11:58:00

2005-06-24T11:00:56Z

well i think scarlotta just about summed up our adventures in the big smoke perfectly, although she did neglect to mention one tiny weeny minor detail;

"fook chicken...i wanna kebab".

just about says it all really.

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-22T12:19:00

2005-06-22T11:19:48Z

and also, there is a v v odd boy straing at me from the other computer.
dont like it

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-22T12:12:00

2005-06-22T11:14:57Z

forgot to mention, v odd behaviour from marc; apparently he is taking me somewhere special to make up for cancelling our getting fucked night the other night....what??? last time i checked he was in a five year relationship?

very very strange.
does that mean i am going to become his mistress???

ooo eeeer misses

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-22T12:01:00

2005-06-22T11:11:52Z

flippin eck its a scorcher!

so hot i think im going to melt.

so yesterday we did the done thing and went up to hampstead heath and swam in the "ladies" bathing pond. i say "ladies" because i wasnt quite sure what a lot of them were but thats what it said on the sign anyway.

what else has been going on in londinium apart from the unbearable heat and being trapped in a sweaty concrete jungle???

-got a lovely email from justin (damn it, i want to marry him)
-helped ming move house in the blistering heat
-orlando has been forced to rebuild the wall for me because he took the piss out of our first attempt
-and scarlotta is coming to london today! wooooo hoooo! going to take her out to see the sights and sounds, maybe to shoreditch although im not sure i can handle the silly people, but i think deffinately to candybox where we can drink and dance as if we were schoolgirls all over again.

cant wait!

"i got some cds on, got some bottles of wine..."

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-20T13:04:00

2005-06-20T12:10:16Z

Horray! scarlotta's coming to stay! yaaaay!

and i finished making my new bed and i passed out v drunk in it after the picnic on saturday and there are only a couple of weeks til i move in.

oh yeah, pauls bday v successful but very strange behaviour from a certain someone who prefers to spell their name with a c. hmmn. curious

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-17T11:10:00

2005-06-17T10:10:41Z

having spent the whole week staying at bro's house the time has come when i have to finally return to my own flat and face up to the delights of dalston.
am sitting in my bro's living room surrounded by the comfort of his lovely house and as i contemplate the prospect of going back to mine i feel physically sick. but it has to be done. i have to be brave.

last night spent a lovely couple of hours sitting out in the back garden smoking rollies and listening to simon and garfunkle and drinking the wine that me and maj stole from the qmw party. fun.

and tonight am off to paul from work's bday at medicine bar and then off to plastic people and then after that....back to dalston. woooo hoooo!

but only about three weeks of dalstonian hell left to go! on tuesday eliza and me put up the wall in my new room and started building my futon so at least the end is in sight.

anyway, got to pack up my stuff and head back home (can i really call it that?)to see what state the flat is in. noone has been in it for a couple of weeks so i expect some sort of break in to have occured in our absence.
and got to remember to pick up the cd's that majed is meant to have copied for me. mustnt forget. really mustnt forget.

xxxxxx

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-14T13:12:00

2005-06-14T12:19:51Z

i am the worst volunteer worker in the world.

i missed the SHINE end of year thing cos i forgot. and i know that the kids i volunteer with must have turned up there with all their friends expecting to see me and i wasnt there.
and all because i forgot and would much rather go and have lunch with eliza (actually that is true, eliza is way better company than a bunch of kids and she even built my new wardrobe for me).

oh and i am such a scardycat (or scardypig as dave would have called me)that i have run away from dalston and am staying over at bro's house for the week.
but it seems one can never escape from dalston cos i keep having nightmares about it (did i mention that james is planning to call the police about the crack den behind my house?).

"so dont go back to dalston...dont go up the junction...dont go round the houses..."

guess ol' razorlight knew what they were talking about. the area becomming gentrified? whatever.
got in a cab to go home the other night (4 am, thought it unwise to risk getting the nightbus and getting stabbed on way home) and the cabbie told me that if someone had asked him to go up my road five years ago, he would have refused cos it was too dangerous.
hilarious! little ol' me living in area of london with highest crime rate.

yup.

all creatures great and small

2005-06-13T11:58:55Z

this entry is all about god's creatures. the animals of our planet.

firstly, we begin at the bottom of the animal spectrum, with the most primitive and simple of all creatures; the big brother contestant (contestantium brothero biggus).

barbaric and uncultured thses animals feed on the feaces of others and in turn excrete tripe for the general public (next in line in the animal spectrum) to devour. a revolting specimen of animal.

next we move on the the general public (personae generalarium).
not really much to say on these creatures.

finally (although obviously i have had to skip a few just because there are so many species on this earth)we come to the most sophisticated and developed of all species; the meercat.

these ones are the ones to watch out for as they excel all the other creatures with their intelligence and grace, putting us "humans" to shame.

so there we have it...Stinkerellina's take on nature.
its got something to do with the mamouth amount of tv i watched yesterday, including that thing about meercats and big brother, which, after comparing the two species in both "documentaries", i found that the meercats are one hundred times more interesting than a bunch of useless rejects in a house with see-through walls.
and anyway, on big brother meercat edition there was far more sex and fighting and their conversations were a hell of a lot more intelligent.

on saturday hung out with my two favourite britpop rejects, paul and simon.
felt like i was in my very own documentary entitled "whatever happened to britpop".
actually paul's alright, hadnt seen him for AGES and he is still looking as sprightly as ever.

bro's thing on friday was a roaring success, got £40 for doing the cloakroom and a night of free drinks. safe.

need to go and do some important things now.

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-10T15:39:00

2005-06-10T14:59:20Z

please may i have £6 so that i can go to the V&A to see the 100 years of penguin exhibition??? (loads of vintage penguin book covers on display. and yes, im well aware of the fact that i am an anorak and quite possibly a geek).

"tying to catch my eyyyyeee, but i just cant help myself...i really, really wish i could be somewehre else..."

thats not true cos am very much enjoying this week long bender.
sat down in hell this morning with a diet coke and the paper and suddenly realised that for about 2 weeks i havent actually been sober.
of course it is all escapism and slight boredom but have been having a grand old time, jamming about. doing a bit of this and a bit of that and sitting about in ol'hoxton.
feel like some kind of rock star.
but im paying the price (quite literally) now as all this hedonism has left me with not a penny. today things got so desperate that i counted up all my coppers (of which i have £2) and got them changed at the bank and tonight, to try and earn a tiny bit of cash i am working in the cloakroom at andy's thing till 3am. getting paid a very measly amount but, you know what they say; every little helps.

everything wil be ok when my job starts (mid july) cos then ill have a proper wage and will be so busy that i wont have time to drink my life away...cant wait. and on top of that i will be moving house so i cant make a fresh start.

cant wait to move out. i think part of my drinking is related to the fact that my current flat is soo fucking dingy and horrible that i cant stand to be in it so i spend all my evenings in bars getting drunk. when i move into the new house things will be a lot better cos ill be in a lovely house , in a safe area (heard some girl being raped in the park at the back of my bedroom the other night...thats how bad dalston is) with a group of people who are fantastic.

so all in all things are looking up and i will do my utmost to make sure they stay up.
and its like we were saying last night; at least if u have a shit time then when things DO go right (which they are at the moment, touch wood) then you appreciate them even more and learn not to whinge about little things.

horray! wooopdedooo!

ok, am off to make the most of these good times cos one doesnt know how long they are going to last.

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-07T12:42:00

2005-06-07T12:07:01Z

ey up...

i think it was old shin who commented on my thingy from yesterday and i think i need to clarify one or two things for her cos, being on the other side of the world, things get lost in translation (or something to do with timezones or sth). anyway, she didnt understand so will set her straight;

julio is a fictional (i think) character from a lovely simon and garfunkle song that goes "me and julio down in the school yard.....".

JUSTIN however is my new friend that has now become my lover (more about that when u get back to england) and who i am meeting for lunch in about an hour

and of course we all know simon (lots of gossip abt that coming your away sarah...lucky you!).

so there you go.
hope that is all nice and clarified for you.

have fun in korea my lovely!!!!!

got to go book a ticket to cardiff now, back in a tick...

aw bloody hell this is annoying; nationalrailenquiries.com isnt working, nationalexpress.com says you can use a student card to travel cheap but doesnt say whether it is an nus or a specific "nationalexpress student card" and bloody megabus is shit.
this is bloody annoying.
and for some reason my eyes hurt.

im off.

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-06T13:57:00

2005-06-06T13:08:52Z

word up.

well my new friend from the other night has now become my lover. yes. oh yes.
but the only downside is that he is moving away to new york for ever in a few days. oh well, another one bites the dust (again).

very messy weekend, all is a bit hazy.
thursday= drinks at hell to support tor on her first shift, followed by party that ollie and my bro happened to be at in strongrooms and then lots of shenanegans around hoxton.
friday= hoxton bar and kitchen then on to hell where i propped up the bar for many an hour enjoying free cocktails (the ones that tor bodged up)and chatting to tim who delighted in showing me his freshly manicured nails (and no, he isnt gay, just an archetypal metrosexual).
saturday=simons house during the day (well we are supposed to be friends) then out for dinner and gallons of wine.

so today i am chilling out maxing, relaxing and cooling and shooting some b-ball up and i was cool (i think thats how it goes) before heading back home to the 'ditch ("its never windy in shoreditch") for a "quick drink".

oh, and apparently "that little brown haired girl at the bar is hot" (their words not mine).

it never rains but it pours.

stinkerellina @ 2005-06-02T13:00:00

2005-06-02T12:12:46Z

well the world really is a horrible place to be in and i dont particularly want to be a part of it but unfortunately, due to circumstances entirely beyond my control, i am. so i just better bloody well get used to it.
and its full of horrible people too.

im going to get a sandwich

ba'sta'ds

2005-06-01T12:02:48Z

getting ever so slightly annoyed now...
trying to book a eurostar ticket to go and see my mum next week but the bloody site in't working and i cant book it...ARGHHHHHHHH.
actually maybe thats an omen that i shouldnt go.
will try again tommorow.
oh and ziggy has a blog but it isnt an lj therefore there is no point reading it cos it must be crap.